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August 10 Lessons that go unnoticed begin to unfold.As, I had mentioned to many of you, one of my spirit names, I am called is Kade-anikwat (Blackcloud), Raven Warrior is who I become when those are seeking help because they are crying out in FEAR and lost in their own DARKNESSES they slowly created with their own minds, closing out the light of their own truth to be happy inside of themselves.
Dear sisters and brothers: Life is not what you think it is, when you are not apart of the cycle of LIFE, when it comes to making changes within yourself, it takes a lot of courage to be-able to withstand your own self and others, who remind you of your own worst enemy, yourself, they have their own challenges they are going to contend with, within themselves...once, again you will be tested on what you have learnt about yourself when it comes to accepting certain things about yourself on whether they are positive or negitive that will be up to you in what you will need to change within you, when it comes to you and like I had said, "You don't have to change everything about you, just the things that stop you from being you so that you are able to move on with yourself, in a good way...but, it seems like many who I have talked to, do not connect with this concept of making change where change is needed but this is alright because for those who have, they too had to see and feel, why they needed to make their own changes within themselves as well...it will not be, a snap of the tumb and finger and than "presto", my life is instantly changed for the better, "NOT SO"...there will always be more to this process then thinking this is so because if you allow yourself to think in this way, you will find yourself falling back even further into yourself, pushing all the negitive energy down into the pit of your Soul because you don't feel satisfied enough to do something about it so your day ends in disaster...is this what you want for yourself feeling like you didn't get anything out of it because you still are feeling alone and miserible or does it seem like you are still in the same place as you started off from earlier that day...will you allow yourself to do the work that you need to do with yourself so you don't have to worry anymore about things like this that falsely corrupts the thoughts in your mind or influenced by someone else's thoughts that are corrupted...did you chose a false thought to think that you are feeling alright, when you are not, well that is called, "lying to yourself, my friends and you may of done this many times before, right!!!...anyway, whose counting, right!!!...why worry about this kind of situation, when you can turn it into a problem instead and think nothing of it and why don't we avoid the ones who are there to help us and hang out with the ones who will give us the answer we want to hear...as it goes, "my way or the highway" or else, just leave me alone...THATS A BIG HOLE YOU FELL INTO...why would you continue on with believing in something like that when you could be doing the work you should be doing for yourself, rather, then blaming everyone for your own foundation of missery you allowed to be built into your life on whether you knew it or not that my friends will be up to you on how honest you are with you or debating on whether your life should be happy or filled with missery...these are all about choices you must make and decide on...have you ever saw mimes when they create facial expressions on their faces either an expression of sadness (false happiness) where, they come right out of that expression and give an expression of joy and happiness, well don't you think you are doing the same kind of thing creating a false impression of your own world that you are living in because you thought it was perfect in the way you built it with your own thoughts...a world with a weak foundation to stand on...well in some ways this is absolutely correct because our worlds are not so perfect in its own way that is why you are very unique as human beings...accepting or allowing ourselves to make mistakes are the lessons in which, we will learn from as we continue on making more of them either they are positive or negitive, they are our lesson to learn from, it really does not matter because they do come with an understanding in their own time...WISDOM is knowing in what is and what is not...we must go through this process in order for us to gain the KNOWLEDGE to put our truths back together in the way it is meant in order for us to understand it which is your own truth in you, not mind...my life is not perfect to say the lease and I do make all kinds of mistakes and I will continue on making all kinds of mistakes until I leave this world but the difference between this is, those who are not ready for their truths will find ways not to want to know and for those who want to know will use the tool from the room of knowledge, PERSEVERANCE, just as I did...I am doing something about it and I am not procrastinating like I did many times, over and over, repeatedly, until I learnt to see what it was doing to me...I was hurting myself, which led to hurting others, mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, leaving deep scars behind and open wounds as a reminder of what I was carring in me...black and blue from the battles I faught within myself, inflicting pain upond my spirit to be free where my Soul was hurting because my spirit imprisoned my Soul so I could not fulfil my purpose, I was instructed to do for myself...my whole being became too sensitive to be held and loved because it hurt to much to hear it, feel it and see it so I turned away from my Creator, my Love, my Friend and my Father...my journey back from my darkness made me stronger to be me...my experiences where my lessons to learn from which became my strengths to be strong and from it the Wisdom helped me to know what and who I am, "ME", nobody else but me...I find my life has turned for the better and it has become more manageable where I am more responsible for what I had said and did to myself and onto others who did not deserve this kind of treatment from me...I have become more and more accountable for my actions that I placed upond myself and others, along my path in my life...I know, I am in more control of my own life where I don't have to worry about someone elses life, because it is not mine to worry about,and where I had allowed myself to think that I had the right to control what didn't belong to me...there is nothing to boost about in my life but only to give thanks and to be very grateful to the Creator for being there for me, and all the sisters and brothers who are out there helping each other to accomplish certain goals in their lives...many time before this I thought the Creator was not there for me but little did I know that the Creator was always there picking me up when I was weak and tired from the many battles I had with myself and now, I know, I can say I truly LOVE the Creator with all my heart...The Creator has helped me to find the courage to face my biggest FEARS in me and to confront myself now and then when I am in doubt of (INTEGRITY) being true to me and to pick myself up and continue on with my journey to my center of my TRUTH...my LIFE has more meaning when I am true to my word as it will for you in the time that it will take for you to accept you for you and your own truth about you...feeling sorry for yourself does not work because it draws you back even further back into yourself causing you more pain and torment, when you can be moving on to the center, which is called the "NOW"...if, you get caught up in everyone elses chaos of different types of negitive moods, then you are not living your own life because you have accepted their emotional negitivities and feelings where you make them your own...this relates to only those who have a problem in managing their own lifestyles, for instance: worrying about on whether they are doing the right things or are they saying the right words to people when it comes to conversations or taking on feelings that don't even belong to them, just because they want to rescue that person(s) or vent on them for what reasons, who knows and so on...people like to complain about anything and everything that they don't like in themselves or in everyone else's life and staying away from their own situations they had created in their own lives with denial...your character alters the balance to what will be your future in time to come, when it comes to making decisions that you will need to make one day, soon, for yourself...when it comes to making the nessessary changes in your life for a better you, you will appreciate you for who you are, rather then living a life of misery...don't fret about misery be the best at it because when you are tired of feeling miserible there is only one other thing to be and that is to be happy with yourself, right!...so, my sisters and brothers as the song goes, " Don't worry, be happy"...if there is a will, there is away to a better life for yourself...I thank you for sitting at the Sacred Fire with me and I love you because you are very Sacred to me, always...your brothers, Blackcloud and Firekeeper. April 21 Where did the people go?When you read this blog writing, remember that when I speak of the Elders, I am speaking of the ones who have journeyed their own lives and they are sharing with us of what had happened to them along their paths they had taken...Elders were young once, too, but we too are not to far behind them as well as we journey towards our own golds to share with those about our own experiences in what we too encountered along our own paths...as your children and their children's children will do in their time...our Elders are the ones who have journeyed ahead, just like the ones before them in their lives...they do their best to let us know in what we need to change in our lives if we want a better life for our children and grandchildren...RESPECT the ones who have gone one second, one minute, one hour, one week, one month and one year ahead of you because they have lived and experienced those moments, so, do your best to allow yourself to listen to them, they know what they are talking about, when they share of past events on whether they were HAPPY or UNHAPPY...take time out to reflect on what you read and tell me or tell someone what you remember about your life.
Hello Sisters and Brothers: There are so many stories that each and one of us has either shared or kept to ourselves for what reasons only you know, why...I have heard many stories from Elders as it may of been for you as well...where we all sat with them from time to time in the Sharing Circles, where they shared with us of their stories and their lessons that they had learnt along their walk for a better life for themselves and now they teach their people that they too can do the same for themselves...their life experiences have become their strengths to help guide us and to hopefully encourage us to rethink of what we are doing to ourselves in our lives, we are living, today...their messages are very powerful with the words they choose to use, are kind and gentle, when they speak to us in a good way because they know what it feels like when you use harsh words to describe how you are feeling towards yourself or others who have up-set you in a terrible way...their experiences that they too went through are now told through stories for us to see and to listen to with our hearts, not our minds alone...we will one day share our own stories when we too become of that age on whether they are traditional teachings or on the lessons we too have learnt in our lives, on whether our stories are unhealthy or healthy experiences that we go through from time to time and most of all when we too have made mistakes from time to time...so, your trials and errors are ment to be your guides to leading you onto your own path, you once walked in a good way...as, you share your own stories to one or more about the many times you fell to the ground and you could not get up because you were in so much pain that the only thing you could do is lay there feeling helpless...you struggled and fought for your own life to stay alive...by, sharing your stories from your heart in what it was like for you and how you learnt to stand up for yourself was showing you how to be a survivor to live the life you are suppose to live...like me, like you, you were probably alittle to young as a child to know what to acknowledge, let alone the true wisdom of your own understanding of you, it was foreign to you, as it was for many of us as adults too, unable to understand what our elders were sharing with us because we were just to messed-up to acknowledge in the way we should be acknowledging it because of alcohol and drugs or whatever, we are taking into our bodies, we lose the understanding to whatwe are suppose to be learning with ourselves...instead we numb our hearts and our minds because we don't want to feel our own pains that we still inflict into our own lives and we certainly don't want to be reminded on how much we are hurting inside of our hearts...in time you will see your own truth in the way it is meant for you to see it...what they are really trying to tell us was that each one of us, must learn how important it is to reshape our future in order to make the future a better place to live in so that your generation and the next generation to come will heal in the way it is meant for us to heal together...you need to see into your hearts, speak from your hearts and listen with your hearts in order for you to understand in what we all need to do for ourselves and how we are not helping our communities, by us fighting one another because we are just plain angry with everything about who we have become "Lost Spirits and Souls" where our minds have become weak with envy towards our brothers and sisters because you don't like each other or in what the other had said because of their own selfishness to not be strong for themselves...the false pride (EGO) is at your doorstep and continues on to play its game with you, making you believe that you are envinceable towards others...rather than using this phrase, " I am better than you, you are less than me", maybe you should use this phrase, " I am no better nor am I less then you, I am your equal because I can be me and I refuse to allow myself look down on you thinking that you are less then me or looking up at you thinking you are better then me"...it is really a shame if you are to allow yourself to believe that you are better than other people because you still feel less then yourself and others, this only means that you do not have any respect for yourself or for anyone else...no self-respect, no self-worth but only FEAR in it's own self and you are it...what the Elders are saying as well is that we need to grow together like a braid of Sweetgrass for hope and strength to over-come our painful pasts that we still dwell in, over and over and time within time if you don't find the right solutions for you then the future will show you where you will end up in your time...our furure depends on everyone and the lessons that lay along each and everyone's paths will either be pick-up or go unnoticed, this will be your choice...we will evenually learn if you want a better future for yourself and so you are able to help your people...what and who you will become in time, will be up to you and stop the blame game because it doesn't help you heal or grow inside and take responsibility and be accountable for your own life, no-body elses life...the way you do this is you need to correct in only what you placed in your world that stops you from moving on with yourself so that you can and you will make the right choices for yourself as it was for the many Elders who too one time sat with their Elders going through the same learning as you are about to do for yourself...an Elder will speak of their own truth that relates to your own truth when it comes to doing what you are suppose to be doing for yourself and if you are not doing this then you have missed the whole point to the understanding in knowing your truth...it is usually up to you in what you acknowlege, and (RESPECT) the Elders who are sharing with you but first of all do your best to not interupt, by speaking to one another when an Elder is sharing, learn to be Patient with yourself and with others...what do you take from their stories is up to you and will you listen from your hearts because what you take from it, it will help you on your way to learning of you and how you are and you will always be apart of this process in learning about you to be you...a good friend of mine told me about an open question, an Elder had asked,"Where did the people go?" ...that question made me think," Where did the people go?"...it was very deep but true and to the point, question...for me, I heard of this kind question before by many other Elders in the communities and in suburben communities, I visited when I wanted to learn about me...the meaning of this question is that people, not all people, lost their way to be happy and to enjoy life and all it had to offer to a person who wanted to learn and live a good life for themselves...for some, they chose not to see their truth to be happy or learn to understand their purpose in which they needed to follow in their lives...do you know your purpose?...or are you one of the many people who strayed off their paths and who is still lost in your own fears...are you still a prisoner in your own mind second guessing your first thoughts to do the right thing for yourself...the real truth is that you are the one who holds the key to your own freedom to making the right choices in your life...I know it very well because I was one of many who was a prisoner in his own (world)mind and he was very afraid to make the right choices for himself in order to change not all things about me but the things he did to himself and others...it does take time but also it all depends on you on how much you want to make your own changes in your life that holds you back from moving on with yourself and do you truly, truly feel the peace within your heart and your mind is it calm so you are able to think without angry thoughts of your past...your soul is it truly free to journey to do it's purpose in your life and is your spirit still tainted with black energy that feels yucky where it will not let go of haunting memories of your past...Patience and Perserverance are two of many tools you are going to need when you climb your own mountain that you have built and now you have to climb at some point in your journey to set yourself free from your past...There is a story, I would like to share with you about a picture that was drawn in black charcoal...I met this young Cree man who had told me about a dream he had so he put the dream on paper, along with a story...an artist who brought beauty into our worlds by the pictures he painted on canvas...a picture of life or a picture representing death was up to the person who saw from their heart...there was a story to be told...the story that I would like to share with you is about the animals going back home to their Creator...the young man was on a mission to bring an important understanding to the people that were interested in wanting to know the truth about what was really happening out there besides their own selfish ways to destroy the beauty in the world...I was at the 500 Hundred Years Indigenous Conferrence in Hull Quebec and where I was drawn into a place, where other Aboriginal/Indigenous artists displayed their art and their crafts to all those who appreciated the artistic abilities that were created especially for them to feel and see with their minds and their hearts together...as, I wandered about I came across a booth which displayed beautiful paintings which was very catching to my eye but as I turned my head there was another, it was not a painting but a drawing done in black charcoal...this was the only drawing done in black charcoal, the rest of the other pictures on canvas were done in colourful oil paints...this made me curious to ask the artist, what the picture ment and why was there only one black charcoal displayed here...his reply was that the black charcoal drawing had a very special story to it and he was going to tell the story in the way he was instructed to tell it to the people...as, I looked at the drawing, my heart became very sad and very emotional as I connected with the drawing, waiting for him to tell the story, just as it is for me to tell you...he was instructed by the Dream Spirits to draw this picture of an Eagle's head and within the Eagle's head, animals emerged with sadness in their eye that showed on their faces...their black tears streamed down from their eyes, showing us that they were all hurting and that their hearts were in pain...as, he went on, I felt a lump of emotion swell up in my throat as he spoke of this truth of what was actually happening to them day after day...silence filled the the room because of what he was telling us, the truth...the animals were telling us what our people were doing to them and that we were not listening with our hearts...people are killing us slowly...what people are doing to themselves they are doing to everything around them which is hurting Mother Earth and destroying all "Life" that she nurtures with her heart, like a mother with her child when the child is hurting or in pain...people are polluting the "Air ", with all kinds of toxic chemicals which will destroy the clean air, we all have to breathe, people are polluting the clean,"Water" by dumping toxic waste and oil into the oceans, seas and into the clean water that we all need to drink...the water is the Blood of our Mother the Earth", her blood substains all,"LIFE", you have all forgotten about...people are polluting the "Soil", with all the toxic wastes and chemicals people use on your lawns and in their gardens and everywhere else which kills other life...without clean water all your foods will also become contaminated to feed your bodies and our bodies you use to destroy...so, when you eat us, you will suffer the consequences just like we are doing right now and for the medicines that were put there to help us all heal from certain illnesses, they too will be infected losing their purpose to do their job help heal...the people's purpose for being here is to appreciate in what the Creator has created for the people so why do you people destroy these beautiful gifts and the Love for its beauty...by being grateful in what you are recieving and still are recieving from our Mother the Earth has a lot of responsibilities that needs to be followed...your instructions were very simple, not to destroy other "LIFE", but to respect it in a good way as we do...we sacrifice our own bodies to nurish and feed the you so that you can continue on with your lives to learning about the importance of giving back in what you people have taken for granted because you choose to PROFIT from it and because of the people's ignorance to acknowledge this understanding, we continue on suffering from your lack of compassion for "LIFE", itself...we are preparing for our departure so we don't have to suffer anymore because of the people, who don't want to be apart of the 'Circle of Life", and to clean-up the mess they created out of GREED...we will return back to where we once came from, unless, you the people decide as one together, in what the people will need to unchange your own worlds that you and others have falsely created by GREED, POWER and CONTROL...the people have forgotten about us and everything else, we too are your brothers and sisters as well...all people will parish one day afterwards, just as it will be for us...the trees will leave soon as well they too have sacrificed their own lives so you the people could build your shelters to keep yourselves from the harsh weather that comes your way...the trees will no longer be there for the people to build their shelters or cook their meals or keep you warm on cold nights and days...the life in the water worlds and it's life will no longer be there for the people when you set out your nets for food you enjoy eating...the air will not be clean enough for you and other life to breathe or when you and others look up into the sky to watch the birds flying over your heads there will not be any birds to see...the people have taken but not once have they given back in appreciation for life in what they have recieved...this is one decision for all mankind to make as one heart, one mind and one spirit...your future is in what you and your people might still be, destroyers and contaminators...Not all people will parish, only those who will not help in making it posible for all of us to live together in harmony...this story really got to me because at one time I was one of those people who threw their garbage onto the ground and tossed my garbage into the water, we drank...I did not appreciate nor did I respect in what life was offering me, with open arms...so, step into the circle of Life and be apart of it all because it is all good if you want it to be there for your children and their children's children...I was missing out on the good things in life because I wasn't enjoying my life...I was about to get a reality check of my past and where I was still with myself up to my mid-thirties...I was watching the news clip on T.V. about a Duck that was hurting and in pain because someone threw a flexible piece of plastic that holds the beer cans together into the water and it became entangled around the Duck's neck...I sat there with my jaw dropping to the ground and a lump of emotion came to my throat because it was like, I was the one who threw that piece of plastic into the water...tears flowed down my eyes realizing that I was who I was and that I had to do something to change this habit I created in myself...this news clip helped me to understand in what I saw within myself...it was going to take sometime to make this change but it was going to be all worth it in the long run and it did forteen years ago to this day...I make better choices for myself like everything else and to be not apart of the problem that is still going on out there in the world...I pray that the people will all come together one day soon and listen to our instructions to better our lives in the New World, it is already here, so do something about it...so, let us pray together and let us all enjoy the beauty that is here and love in what we have with respect for all, "LIFE", as we learn to know it. Sending my Love to you all...your brother and friend, Firekeeper. February 26 Caterpillar, Cuccoon, and ButterflyHello and how are you, today...This summer I was told by my Creator a beautiful story about me and I would like to share it with you, in what I learnt about the butterfly...I am sure that you will enjoy it, just, as much as I did because it also has to do with you, in the way you feel about yourself when it comes to feeling beautiful inside...the Creator had taken me back to a time when I was just a little boy, curious about what these little creatures were all about and what their purpose was going to be in my world in time to come...I was taken to a cherry tree and shown this huge cluster of little caterpillars coming to life and breaking out of this huge cuccoon that was made by their creator to keep them safe from harm...a little like what my mother had done for my two sisters and I, she made us a home where she kept us safe from harm and out of reach from anyone that was there to harm us in anyway...it was only when I wanted to go outside to play and venture about with a curious mind in what was there for me to see and hear...curiousity in the child's mind only made me want to learn more about the things that I was drawn more to and to learn what I could about it...this meant that I would have to journey out of my home into an unknown world awaiting for me to experience to whatever I had to experience in my life...the Creator took me to this cherry tree and the large cuccoon that rested in the crouch of tree for better support for the cuccoon and as I watched with curious eyes, I could see movement inside of this cuccoon which of course brought me to want to know what these little things where inside...every, day I would go back to the same tree and watch it with excitement in my eyes wondering what these little creatures were all about until they grew alittle bigger in size...the next day, I went back to the cuccoon and with my surprise, they where all over the cuccoon crawling here and there, so, I sat there for many hours just watching them wiggle and squirm about as they made their way out into a new world and then they fell to the ground and continue on with their journey into the unknown...the feeling of the little furry caterpillars and their little tiny feet tickled when I put them into my hand as they crawled up my arm making me giggle and then into a laughter, do you remember doing this...my Creator took me back to helped me to remember the many times that I was able to laughed as a child and to have lots of fun in play because it was meant for me to experience the feeling of joy and to appreciate the moment I had when I was tickled and laughter came about as a little boy...I didn't know at the time as a child what I was supposed to be learning but to show me in what caterpillars looked like and how fast they grew in size when beauty was in the making...I still didn't understand why and what I was being shown about the caterpillars maybe because I was too little and inexperienced to understand the purpose of it all but in time I would...as, I watched, I was told to be myself and my mission was to be there as a witness in how beauty was being born...the understanding would come to me in time as I was told with silent words from my heart...the caterpillars are one of many of our great teachers in this world which I was being shown by the Creator to watch and to observe on how important these caterpillars are to us...one of the great mysteries of life is the beginning of something that is so beautiful to be apart of when life is at work, but in our lives we tend to miss the very beginning in how beauty is created within us or around us and when we are given a chance to be a witness to our Creator's work of perfection, we sometimes will destroy what was ment for us to be apart of rather then learning about the true meaning on how beautiful we are inside...the adult will lay hundreds of tiny wee caterpillars in this cuccoon and in their first stage of life, we sometimes will miss the beginning of this special event...they are placed into a cuccoon made especially for these tiny creatures so they are protected from predators that prey on the small and weak...so when you are observing something so precious as Life that is being created then you are a withness to the Creation of how you are apart of it and will always be and if your choice is not to be apart of this creation then you have missed the importance of what Life was offering you...missing the beauty in it all, just like you have missed the beauty in yourself and what was the first thing that you might of said when you saw these caterpillars for the first time, when you were a little girl, yuck, it's ugly looking and scream out loud and for the little boy, what ugly looking caterpillars and wanted to destroy each and everyone of them because he did not understand about what beauty was to him at the time or her...has anyone ever told you that you were ugly on the outside and it hurt you a lot because you didn't know how or what to say to this person that you were not ugly, that he or she or they were hurting your feelings when they said this to you time after time and you started to believed this was true about you...to hear this all the time, you will feel that you are ugly on the outside because now you are feeling ugly from the inside of you and now when you look into a mirror you probably don't like what you see about yourself on the outside, then in most cases you probably felt your stomache filled with the pain of torment this is because you are feeling the pain of ugliness inside of you...many of you were being conditioned to believe that you were ugly so you accepted the lesson to learn from and because you didn't have the right understanding at the time so you probably didn't know what you were going through but to only to feel unhappy with yourself...when you said as a child or adult "these caterpillars are ugly looking", it is only because you were looking at a mirror reflection of yourself in the way, you were feeling about yourself at the time a feeling of ugliness...did you ever think of how the caterpillars must of felt when you sent your painful and hurtful thoughts or words to them and then turning away feeling discussed in your ugliness, well put yourself in the body of each caterpillar and look at yourself in what you see about yourself, this is called," Empathy", which will lead you to the beginning of where you learnt how to feel ugly in you...the pain and hurtful words are bouncing around in your head and throughout your entire body making you feel unhappy about yourself, we will carry these pains and hurts throughout our whole life and feel miserable everytime unless you choose to do something about it...if we have not done anything about it then we will be reminded of how we are feeling about our ugliness by those when they give you a compliment(s) by telling you that you are very beautiful or a inspiration of a silent stare that they saw something beautiful in you and you reject their compliments by saying,"you must be talking or looking at someone else", never accepting that someone sees you for you, your beauty...it didn't really matter you at the time maybe because you didn't have any self-worth, who knows only you do...I guess this was the way you allowed yourself to recieve the compliment and not accepted it...so, for many weeks the caterpillars will go through their many changes as they journey along their paths in their lives...the caterpillars will also fall prey to many kinds of predators that are looking for an easy meals...the caterpillars will disappear all at once nowhere to be seen, maybe, a little like you, did you disappear into yourself where you didn't want to be found, maybe, you did and maybe you didn't...another form of ugliness is when you are sexually abuse by people who you know and trust or by those who force this upond you as a child or adult, no matter how it is done it leaves deep scars and open wounds that are very sensitive to touch, and leaves you with a feeling of ugliness...like the caterpillars they use their defences when they are full grown giving off a foul odor and taste that become their defences to tell their predators to leave them alone at this stage in their lives so they can continue on with their journey to survive in life...just as you have learnt how to use your defences (Anger and Resentment) that your probably carried for many years deep inside of you and you use it in anyway to protect yourself from anymore harm so that you could continue on with your journey in life as well...take sometime out and ask yourself if the little child in you is still hurting because if you are still feeling this ugliness inside of you then chances are that the little child in you is still hurting...are you still very sensitive towards people when they give you a compliment on how beautiful you are...are you still using the words that were given to you as a child, are you hearing them over and over again like a tape recorder that never turns off and you hear it in your head, and do you hear it coming out of your mouth, using similar words towards your own children that were used against you but in a different way...ummm, I wonder why this is so...you see the caterpillars have one purpose and that purpose is to teach you and that purpose is to help you to learn how to make the right changes in your life and to see your true beauty and also help you to feel what it feels like to feel beautiful inside of you...I will tell you just what it takes to feel and be beautiful inside because what is inside will be on the outside of you and everywhere else...the caterpillars are a piece of our Creator's work of beauty and you to are a piece of the Creator's work of beauty as well...it called,"LIFE"...when the caterpillars reach a certain stage in their lives, the caterpillars will spin or weave themselves into a cuccoon where they will go through a time period of many changes, just like you, when you are making changes with your own life, your whole being is spun into a invisible cuccoon of your own, making the necessary changes to whatever needs to be changed about yourself...with the caterpillars in their cuccoons, you don't see what is really happening in there and what changes are being made and that my friends is why you are drawn to the mystifying powers of change, you want to know what you will look like in your new world that you will create for yourself but you must learn to be patient and wait...and you must learn to use positive words to discribe yourself as a beautiful child of your Creator and see the finished product of perfection emerge from the cuccoon...from this cuccoon a beautiful young butterfly of beauty will emerge from within the light...you are not ugly inside remember this and you never have been, it was only in the way you were thinking and taught to believe by those who saw your beauty and wanted to destroy it because they did not see their own beauty in themselves, you are beautiful because you are a piece of your Creator's perfection of Beauty as everything else that is around you so stop feeling like you are ugly because you are not ugly...I am inspired by those who want to feel beautiful about themselves because you are working very hard to pick up your pieces that you left behind and looking at the beauty in it all, only you and now because of the hard work you have done for yourself you will radiate with a gentle glowing light of your Creator's perfection through out your entire self when this process is done...take time when the caterpillars come out to make their journey into another cycle of life and give thanks to them for showing you how special you really are when it comes to making change in your Life to be you, young and vibrant, young and beautiful...be yourself and nobody else...I love you all...your brother and friend, Firekeeper. February 13 I Am The TreeHello and how are you, my brothers and sisters...One of my favorites is when I take a trip into the bush or to a park...I like to find a nice shady tree to sit underneath and the tree is filled with lots of leaves so I can be shaded from the scorching sun but most of all, just sit or lay there and listen to the trees speak in their own languages...I don't totally understand in what they are saying to each other but a deeper feeling from within tells me that I do hear and feel what they are saying to me...when you go to a tree do you ever greet the tree and ask for permission to sit underneath it's shade and have you ever taken the time out to sit under a tree in silence and when you did, did you ever feel a warm comfortable presence their with you or have you ever closed your eyes and allowed your ears to bring you to your center of everything...when you got up to leave did you ever want to hug the tree you sat underneath of and allowing yourself to give thanks of appreciation for shading you, when you needed it...if you did then you know the feeling that I am talking about but if you have not then maybe you should try it because its a beautiful feeling to experience...why, I ask this is because the tree has a spirit and soul, just like we do and the tree has away of comforting us when we are in need to be comfort...more so the tree has many gifts to offer us if we choose to accept the tree to be in our lives, rather, then taking the tree for granted that the tree will always be there for us...this might sound alittle out of the ordinary for you, but it is true if you let it be this in you...I will explain to you why this is so, you see the tree is a lot like us, we have arms and legs that are our limbs which is attacted to our torso, the body, just like the tree has branches and roots that spreads out from the torso, the body of the tree which are limbs...if you don't know what is the difference between the tree and us that is only because we don't have the right information that links us to the tree, it is your choice on whether you believe this or not...so, let us begin the teaching of the tree in what your tree has to offer you...the Creator has put the tree there for you to learn from about you...when the tree first became the tree it started as a seed which worked it way up through the soil and then eventually grew into a young sappling...there was a lot going on inside of your mother's womb when you were a seed, when you to first came into existance...to inexperienced to know what "Life" was to offer you on whether you were to learn of a path that would take you away from your purpose in "Life"...this is where we will start with you...you will learn to go to the center of you and then learning how to working your way back-out of you, repeating, the journey over and over again until you get to know yourself in and out... when you were an infant with no understanding to what you were to expect of the unknown, you had to learn how to "Trust", a lot of responsibility for a baby to learn, just like the young sappling had to...you had to learn to trust your mother and father that they will take care of you in anyway, you needed to learn to be you or not to be you...not every person has gone through what others have so when you first began your journey just like the young sappling did, it had to go through the many struggles of its growth to become a full grown tree as it was for you when you were a baby growing into an adult...you had to learn to recognize who your caretakers were and how they treated you before and after you were changed when your diaper was dirty, or when you needed to be fed because you were hungry, or when you needed to be held in comfort because you were startled by a strange noise that made you cry out in fear and so on...were they there for you when you needed to be nurtured with love, kind loving words...were you ever played and laughed with and were you held by your caretakers because they loved you with all their hearts...did you ever recieve this kind of affection and nurturing from your caretakers or did you not feel appreciated and loved as a child...if you did not recieve this kind of nurturing and love then the journey to your center might be more of a chellenge for you to want to know why you did not recieve the kind of love you should of recieved as a child...it was meant for you to feel loved and for you to grow into a healthy and loving person not a unhealthy and unloving person, it probably destroyed you inside feeling unloved where it turn into hatred and resentment for your caretakers...jealousy towards others who are living a better life then you are or feeling really miserable from inside of you can make you feel ugly and unattractive on the outside of you...from this you are probably feeling very angry with yourself and with others, nowhere to turn or go...feeling empty inside also makes you feel like you don't have any ambition to want to do anything contructive for yourself to move forward or continue on with your life...you simply don't want to be around people who remind you of your caretakers...feeling lost, nothing good to offer yourself, feeling alone and feeling unwanted is a big sign of depression and thinking that nobody really cares about you and your world, you live in, your probably right about that one...WOW...whatever, happened to your world that was filled with so much love and happiness, where did it go?...if, you are feeling so much sadness in your world and bitterness to not want change then what do you want for yourself...it takes a lot of practice to be one way with yourself and it takes just as long to be the other way with yourself as well...your stubbornness run in two direction; first, direction is when you are too determine to not be yourself, by being to stubborn to not want to know, why you are sad and secondly, rather then not wanting to know why you are sad, why not turn your stubbornness around and use it to want to know, why you are sad?, what do you think of this turn around for yourself, you just might be surprised of what it holds for you...what more can it do to you especially if you are already feeling misserible...in time as it might already be for you that it could or will have a very strong impact on your future if you don't have any desire to want to live a happy life because you are always feeling a sense of no self-worth, only existing in this made up world you became apart of where you are not living the life you should be living for yourself and having lots of fun and loving it...trying to exist in someone elses world brings more pain and hurt that you suffer from already...why are you so attracted to the same kind of pain that is hurting you...if you don't see this then you will learn how to imprison yourself in their world of pain that they to are hurting themselves by and you with your hard cored attitute telling yourself that nobody is ever going to hurt me ever again, "EVER", only me now that is funny...the tree is protected by thick bark, withstanding, the element's of each season and all kinds of unwanted insects that relies on the tree for shelter and protection...the wind can be harsh and very brutual against the trees, pushing them up against one another leaving behind deep scars a reminder of what it was like for the tree and but the real scarring for the tree are the very deep ones scars of a different kind of attack from inside...these are the ones we sometimes can't see with our eyes because they are to small to see, unless someone tells you on what they are and you take time out to look hard enough then you will see, them...there are many kinds of insects who like to make their homes in the tree without any kind of invitation...they bore deep into the tree making a lot of tunnels throughout the core of the tree and eventually the tree finally weakens as the years pass on by...the tree has no more strength to withstand any kind of wind at all and it will, eventually, fall and crash to the ground and lays helpless and vunerable, fading away slowly until you see the tree no more...if, you allow yourself to continue focusing only on the bigger things(which is your problems) in your life then you will always find yourself feeling miserable and unhappy but if you choose to look at why you are unhappy and sad then you are on your way to identifying and resolving in what was or still is stopping you from moving on to let go...sometimes, we have to allow ourselves to rehash, the memories of unpleasant feelings that we suffered each and every moment of passing days and nights...find someone who you can work with and who you mostly can trust but more so pick up writing paper to write on about your unpleasant experiences in your life and read them over and over to yourself or with a good friend who you feel that you can trust your unpleasant memories with...when you have your truth of understanding of your experiences then you can let it go...when you can do this you have now become a new healthy tree that will blossom every day of the years to come. I thank you very much for your time and I love you all with all my heart and my spirit will always be apart of you. always a brother and a friend to you, Firekeeper. February 07 Hiding-Go-SeekHello my brothers and sisters, how are you at playing games?...there was a game I'm sure you remember playing as a child, do you remember this game, it was called, "Hiding-Go-Seek", now do you remember the game that I am talking about...it was a fun game to learn on how to hide from the person who was suppose to find you and you were suppose to hide in places where you could not be found or seen...were you very good at it, hiding in places where no one could find you, finding good places to hide in as well, I'm sure you did until you got catch, right!...one of the reasons why you got caught was because you wanted to be caught, simple as that...the child would giggle and continue on giggling and even peek out every so often to see where that person was, it was lots of fun then when given a chance you would race from where ever you were hiding to the very spot were you would be safe from being tagged out but sometimes it didn't always work...then there were times when you really knew how to hide when you didn't want to be found so easily that really took a lot of practice...the funny thing with this was that the more you played the more you practiced and it got a lot easier for you to hide in smaller places in you where you could not even find yourself, it wasn't a game anymore their was no more fun in the game and there were no more rules to this game at all...probably, what you didn't realize was that you got older and you were still in the game, where did the time go it probably seemed like it was just yesterday when you were a child of innocence...the game will always continue on no matter how old you get and we will still hide from those who are looking for us thats why we hide to not be found...sexual, physical, mental and spiritual abuse are real events that take place in our lives...do you remember the ones who tried to find you and when they found you they took the gift of innocence from you to be a child who only wanted to play and have fun...you will carry this game with you until you learn how to find the child that is still hiding in you and the way you do this is you must go back to the places where you hid as a child...how many years has it been since you played the game for fun and you got to go home afterwards feeling safe until the next time you played the game, again...do you remember or is it not vivid to you, anymore, because your mind still carries the dark shadows that lingers in the back of your mind but sometimes they could be seen at the corner of your eye every so often...do you still become frighten at night when the light goes out and do you still check under your bed or close the closet door before you go to bed, sure you do...you probably still use a night light in your bedroom, bathroom or even the hallway to feel safe from whatever your imagination can think of because you are still afraid of the dark...your still playing the game...a child's imagination can create many things and bring them to life in the child's world and continue on as an adult still creating these fears as a child does...this is the child in you who is still hiding in the dark who is to scare to come out into the light...then you pass this fear onto your children and their children's children, just because you are afraid and don't want to admit it because you feel ashamed of who you are and try to think of what others would think of you if they knew what had happened to you as a child, will this must stop somewhere why not here and now...your Creator has always been there for you, you just haven't been there for yourself...the Creator has been there night and day to help you in anyway that the Creator could help you, you may of separated yourselves from the Creator condemming the creator because you were feeling alone and lost and asking why did you let this happen to me, the Creator has watched you play this game of yours and says to you with gentle and kind words but where you listening to the message the creator was whispering to you...listen to me my child when you choose to, when are you ready to come home to you, my arms will embrace and comfort you with my love, I have always listened and cried with you when you were sad and unhappy thinking that I was not there, let your tears flow of the pains and hurts that you suffered from when you were a child hiding in fear, you have always been in my heart and will always be apart of me when you choose to be you again...there were many who have journeyed this path and have made it and there were those who were not so fortunate because they gave up being themselves where they did not make it...this is why it is important to rescue the child from distinction in you...thank you for listening and hope to hear from you, soon...give your child and yourself a great big hug and tell the child that you love him or her inside of you...love, your brother and friend, Firekeeper. February 04 Two Warrior Brothers (Blackcloud and Firekeeper)Hello, my Brothers and Sisters...we like to listen to stories and experiences of our journeys that we have taken in our lives so let us journey to meet the two brothers...Blackcloud is a warrior who journeys into the darkness looking for lost spirits and souls who wandered off their paths where they once walked on...these lost spirits who carried their souls do not recognize anymore where they once belonged because they disappeared into the darkness were the light of fire once burnt brightly that lit their world up with joy and beauty and now their fire fades away into fear...they no longer know who they are and their spirit feels very empty inside, an ugliness that does not go away and they don't want to be reminded of what was...they hold themselves as prisoners inside their world of darkness...when their minds and bodies turned the corner in life their souls were locked within their spirits and kept on going into another direction...their spirits became tainted with black energy which drained their souls of what little light they had to live on or the unhealthy spirits would drain energy from the other spirits that were weaker...this is when the tainted spirits would imprisoned their own souls would use up the light that once glowed brightly...the souls are not able to do their purpose than in life because their spirits are burden with self-inflicted pain...Blackcloud brings them their choices on whether they want to continue on feeling empty and lost or feel the joy of happiness and asking them if they wanted to meet his brother, Firekeeper...Blackcloud guides these lost spirits and imprisoned souls to the surface of themselves showing them the direction where they had turned in their lives...Blackcloud takes them out of their darkness and guides them to his brother, Firekeeper who awaits for them with open arms of enlightment...Firekeeper is a Peaceful Warrior who loves his bothers and sisters and teaches them how to rekindle the Sacred Fire that will burn just right once again in them only if this what they want and choose for themself...let us bring the Fire to the place where it burnt just right...let us not let it burn to high or let it burn to low but just right as should be...when your fire burns just right you will not be afraid to remember of all the good things about you when you first came into this world, taking your very first baby step at the beginning of your Life's journey...you will relearn how it felt to be loved and appreciated...the many times when you felt empty, lost, alone and unloved your Creator was always there to love you for you and has always been there when you could not get up because you were to weak to do so by yourself as it was when you were first born...you will relearn how to laugh and have fun when you use played as a child, once and as you still are to your Creator...there is more but for now let us all sit by the Sacred Fire that burns within you and listen to your silence to be yourself...thanks for listening to you, my brothers and sisters and let us soar high into the Universe together on the Eagle's back...your brother and friend, always, Firekeeper. February 02 The Bitter Cold of WinterTo my brothers and sisters...people who do think or feel that winter is for the birds, well they are absolutely correct when they say this...the winter is for all on whether they want it or not...the birds and animals don't mind they've always adapted to new change every day and every season that comes but for the humans winter can be very tiring and frustrating at times for those but it can be also very hard on them as well..."LIFE" can be what it wants to be and we don't have any control in the process...people who understand what winter brings celebrates by finding all kinds of things to do for example: skiing, snowmobiling, ice fishing, etc...but for those who don't know this will find almost anything to gripe about why winter sucks..."Winter", my friends is and can be either very harsh and cold or it could be sunny and calm or even in the night the Grandmother Moon shines her light upon Mother Earth reveiling magic in the snow, this so beautiful to be apart of...this is only the surface we are being shown when it comes to learning about you...when the spirit of winter comes it comes to show us who and what we become with ourselves...we learn how to adapt to different changes within our lives that needs to be changed if we are not happy with the way we are feeling, sad, tired, lonely and misserable and so on...question is: do you feel this way and when it is at your door step, what do you do with it?...do you greet the day with open arms and appreciate its' beauty or do you just shut or slam the door to it...something to think about when you close the door on beauty and continuing on feeling miserable because you don't like winter...winter spirit only wants you to know is that if you turn away from yourself to want change if change is needed then your winter will be harsh and very cold for you until you chose to light the fire that will bring warmth to nurture the very thing that will keep you from harming yourself more and more at a time...when you can't accept the help to make change then the lesson or lessons begin without warning...feeling sad takes you to a place within yourself that shows you you are not doing what you are suppose to be doing with yourself, procrastinating on whether you should do it or not, usually not, "wait, I'll do it tommorrow or next week or not at all", thats "SAD" to ignore what you can change now to make you happy...feeling tired because we don't have the energy to enjoy ourselves and what winter has to offer us, maybe it has to with being lazy to not want to make change in ourselves only you know...being stubborn to not want to know can be that you don't want to know your own truth to be who you are, use the stubbornness in another way, be stubborn to want to know why you are really feeling "SAD", you may like it...feeling lonely or alone usually comes from inside because you seperated yourself from everything and anything about you that is good about you so we think by being around people or a friend we will no longer feel alone or lonely but that wares out fast then we become bored and try to find someone or something to do to fulfil that emptiness inside of us...feeling miserable is when we continue on allowing ourself to keep on feeling unhappy with ourselves so we torment ourselves every chance we can get to feel the pains and hurts we put ourselves through even tho we know it or not, is this what you are doing to yourself and others, who knows only you can answer that question and can be honest with you...when we go outside in winter weather and it is very cold or even freezing out are we really prepared for the conditions we face where we forget to put on an extra sweater or pair of socks to keep us warm from frostbites...they can be very painful and it hurts when toes, fingers and even ears thaw out that hurts, we even become scarred by the way we treat ourselves...the winter spirit is there to teach us that if we are ignorant with ourselves then we will have no respect nor will we have no appreciation for what winter spirit brings...every other living thing does not nag or gripe about what conditions will be there for them they adapt to new change the way it should be for some of us as well so do your best to adapt to new change in you as well as what comes to you if change is needed...enjoy what the Creator has brought you a chance to learn more about you not about any body else just you because they will learn about themselves...be kind and gentle with yourself and stop being so harsh on yourself...thx for listening to me and my spirit soars high in the heavens with yours, be good...Firekeeper. January 25 Don't Be Anyone Else But Only YouHello to all the brothers and sisters out there...don't be anyone else but you...when you ride on the Eagle's back, you get to see all the things you've missed along your path in life...have you pick-up those pieces that lay along your path or did you just leave them there, "unacknowledged" or did you see them but did not know what to do with them so what did you do with them?...in order to know who you are you must pick them up without any fear of thinking in what others might think of you if you were to talk about them...the word, " THEM" represents errors and mistakes we've created in our lives but they really are the lessons that are there for you to learn in order for you to correct your life...how is your fire that burns in you, is it to high where you become so out of control with yourself and with others, being frustrated all the time and then turning it into, "Anger"...becoming abusive to those who really don't deserve this kind of mental or physical and even more so spiritual abuse and if you can't control this do you turn it into rage because you don't have any control over your own "LIFE" so you feel it's alright to control someone's "LIFE"...well, "STOP" it...your only hurting yourself when you are out of control...does your fire burn to low where you become passive and turn away because you have a low self-esteem and no self-worth to be strong for yourself or do you run away from those who are hurting you because fear is stopping you from finding the courage to confront yourself or them in a constructive way and more...or does your fire burn just right where you accept yourself for who you really are, "YOU" and the others are just being who they are, a loving and caring people who only want to help in a good way...when you can see and feel this in you then this is the person who you should be...thanks for listening...you are all beautiful people don't stop being you...people don't know who you are, unless you show them or tell them who you are...don't be anyone else but you...your friend and brother, Firekeeper. |
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